Thursday, January 27, 2011
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there is nothing i really want to do anymore
for real
what is this all about
risk is overrated
but i see where that comes it
nope lie
cake.
| in a thousand furnished rooms @ 7:47 AM|
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Saturday, January 22, 2011
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what is the point
why is it such a mess.
actually there is no mess at all.
ah i am enlightened
nobody's being very fair at all
i am too honest for all this. calculating risks has never been a forte.
lies, all of it.
so is this how you play ):
| in a thousand furnished rooms @ 1:44 AM|
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Monday, January 10, 2011
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it has come to nothing
i dont even know what im doing here. i think i live for comfort.
that is not a very comforting thought.
i am so tired.
when i finish this, i think i will leave
it is nice to have a goal
when there is nothing else
i dont know why i am so sad and scared to say it
but please get out of my life
| in a thousand furnished rooms @ 12:44 AM|
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Tuesday, December 07, 2010
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sometimes i dont understand.
wtf was i thinking
wtf do i even see in it.
because i am increasingly annoyed
i cannot stand that wheedling voice
and meaningless words
coupled with complete inaction
sometimes i feel like saying stfu
but then i always doubt
maybe i am not appreciating the good things enough
maybe im being unreasonable
but i am not enjoying it.
i wonder what you think
fucking liar
| in a thousand furnished rooms @ 3:56 AM|
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Monday, December 06, 2010
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is it a kind of dream
floating out in the tide
following the river of death downstream
oh is it a dream
theres a fog along the horizen
a strange glow in the sky
nobody seems to know where you go
and what does it mean
oh is it a dream
bright eyes burning like fire
how can you close and fail
how can the light that burned so brightly
suddenly burn so pale
i realised that i am scared that people i like die
what if you suddenly come across something really awesome and have to tell them
and you dont have enough time to spend with everyone
i also just realised that i am really scared of dying myself
well at least my present consciousness is scared of disappearing forever (assuming that's right).
i am also scared that karma and rebirth is true and i will have to re-live secondary school. and dentists and jabs and exams.
i am scared of so many things.
someone please tell me what to do
(note: rhetorical question and not a plea for religious input)
| in a thousand furnished rooms @ 5:07 PM|
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Friday, December 03, 2010
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through the monsoon beyond the world
till the end of time where the rain won't hurt
fighting the storm into the blue
and when I lose myself I'll think of you
| in a thousand furnished rooms @ 10:34 AM|
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Monday, November 29, 2010
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i have no refuge
it is extremely cold outside. i know it even though i am inside. because it is cold inside too despite the existence of a heater. which is going to switch itself off (magick. i hate remote control technology) in about an hour. i am shivering in advance. i hate this place and it hates me.
and i know i will miss it so much. we have a strange relationship indeed.
it's scary we are all planning goodbyes and being sentimental.
to be honest i never expected this. but i am glad for it.
i hope i dont cry hahaha
nah i wont
all the possibilities.
not enough to make me stay.
not enough to let me leave whole.
people are inherently messy i suppose we leave ourselves everywhere
i do wish i had met you elsewhere. some other time.
with more time to spare.
it is especially sad when you know you will probably never see the other again.
for the first time, forever makes a bit of sense.
:)
| in a thousand furnished rooms @ 1:39 PM|
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